I was walking alone in the night. I was lonely, sad and miserable. I had a fight with my parents.
“I'm so bad. I can't make anyone happy. I just hurt everyone. There's no use to live.
I saw a very bright light coming near me. I was not able to keep my eyes open. And in just a blink of an eye, I don't know something hit me hard in the chest. I could feel my rib bones breaking. I could feel the pain. I wanted to shout but I didn't have strength. It was horrible. My eyes closed and I went into the world of my own.
Suddenly, I found myself in a place which was all dark. I was not able to see anything except a ray of light coming from far away. There was no one. I slowly started walking ahead in the direction of light. I shouted for help but it was just my echo that I was able to hear back. I was scared and afraid.
Life is so unpredictable. When our dear ones are near us we never value them. We never show how much we love them. Now, when they have gone, we feel guilty. We pray for ‘one last time’ with them whereas we missed all the ‘chances’ god had given.
I shouted - Is there anyone? Please help me. I want to go back home. In just a moment of time I had started missing my parents. I had started missing my girlfriend.
Suddenly from somewhere a voice came, “You wanted to die a few minutes ago. Now, what happened?”
My whole body had freeze. I looked everywhere but there was no one. With a very meek voice I said, “Who are you? And where are you?”
“That doesn't matter. You wanted to kill yourself why?”
I stood there for a moment and said," I'm not happy with my life. I make everyone sad. I hurt my parents. I hurt my girlfriend. I'm just a burden on this world. I'm of no use. I am good at nothing. I have so many imperfections. I got angry on silly issues, I over think, I get jealous, I am not even good at studies.”
“You have seen so many flaws in yourself. But have you tried to see ‘the good’ in you?
God have given you flaws but he had even given you strength to change them. It’s okay to have flaws. What matters is how you accept yourself with those flaws. Nobody is perfect. There is no exact definition of word ‘perfect’. It changes with people and situation. Things which are perfect for you might not be perfect for someone else and things which are perfect for them might not be perfect for you. It’s all about being perfect with all your imperfections.
Relationship is about two different people having different thinking and perspective and in between all these differences you need to have one common thing - understanding. Believe her and trust your relationship.”
“You have made your parents a lot more proud than you think. They might not show but they do care for you. Good grades don’t indicate that your parents are proud. It is just a way among those thousand ways to make your parents proud. It is not everything.
To be honest somewhere over thinking is your plus point if you didn't over think then how will you be able to write? I don’t support over thinking. But everyone does think, only few have the power to make friends with the sun, moon, stars and the nature. That’s your strength.
“Each and every word of yours is making sense. But I am still confused I don't know what to do in life I don't know anything.” – I said
He smiled and said, “I can't help you in that you have to find your own way if you are not able to find then create your own way. Find your purpose in life. Find your passion. It's your life and it's your struggle. But do what makes you happy. Life is all about choice. There will be very tough choices like keeping people happy or choosing your happiness; running behind money or running behind your dreams. Choose wisely. It’s your decision, it’s your way. You might opt for wrong choice, you might fall but that doesn’t mean you should give up. Many opportunities will come ahead, many unexpected miracles will happen. You just have to be patient.”
“Your words are very powerful. You just opened my eyes. I know what I have to do I'm so glad to talk with you. “- I said with a smile on my face. “I am going to live my life. I am going to make my parents proud not by getting good grades but by doing good things. I will follow my passion. Might be outcome would not be as expected but at least I will be happy. I will trust my love and relationship. I will not lose hope. I will try to maintain balance between everything.
But who are you? And why there are two lights in this tunnel?
“As you entered the tunnel it was all dark but still you had seen a ray of light far away. The dark tunnel represents the dark phase of your life and the ‘ray of light’ is the hope. In every dark phase there is always a light of hope. The way you have gathered all the strength and walked in the direction of light to overcome the darkness, likewise in the same way you have to keep going in the life.
Once you reached the end of the tunnel you have seen so bright light that you were not able to keep your eyes open. In the same way, once you overcome the darkness of your life you would see the most magical light of your life. Might be the night is long but the ray of sun will always appear in the end.
I’m that voice inside your heart which you left unheard.
In running behind - good grade, money, luxuries and the worldly pleasures you have forgot to hear one of the most important voice – Your inner voice. There’s still ti….m…e…” Before it could complete its sentence something started to ring loudly. I suddenly woke up on the noise of alarm. I was shocked to find myself in my own room. How did I come here? I was thinking that suddenly my heart whispered – Don’t think much. Just relax and enjoy.
I smiled and realized it was all a dream. A dream which taught me too many things about life.